Pre Wedding Emotions Part Two

Hello again, I wasn't planning on writing another blog post tonight, but my thoughts turned back to the wedding, so I felt it fitting to provide an update. Whereas last night I was brimming with nervousness at the thought of taking such a huge step into a new territory, tonight a felt a surge of elation at the idea that my wedding is only twelve days away (as of midnight). What set my mind down this path, was the thought that the vacation I'm on is racing by, and soon it will be over. At first I was a little dispirited by the idea, but then I remembered that I would get to return to my loving fiancée, Chantel, and broke out into a smile in the middle of the darkness (I was trying to fall asleep at this point). Then my thought process continued down this line of logic, and I realized that each day that seems to fly away will bring me one step closer to my wedding. This simple comprehension filled me with a burst of elation; suddenly time couldn't fly away fast enough.
After reveling in the fact that I'm getting married in only twelve days, I was struck by how opposite my feelings were this night. Curious, I dug deeper into my thoughts, unraveling the change that made such a positive difference. In the end the change really wasn't all that consequential, it was a simple shift in focus. Last night, I was worried about all the responsibility that comes with getting married and moving out, tonight I only thought of the benefits of getting married, the extra time I'll get to spend with my beautiful Chantel, the joys of furnishing an apartment together and building our own home, and *ahem* if I'm being totally honest, there are some other benefits I can think of *wink*. I need to remember this, because too often I can be stuck in a rut of pessimistic thoughts, and it does me no good to fixate on negative things and I can't forget all the good things in my life. Even in the worst of circumstances, there are is always a silver lining if you can find it. In the meantime I will be reflecting on my wonderful fiancée, and imagining all the adventures that are in store for us in only twelve more days.